The stories that pour in about how the Fit Moms For Life home workout DVDs, eating plans, and support humble me daily. Jane is another incredible woman who has fought past demons of self-image, eating disorders, and self-infliction to come out the other side an even more amazing version of herself.
I am especially proud and excited that Jane has started the next part of her journey which is becoming a Fit Moms For Life community leader and starting her own local support group.
Jane, I can’t wait to see what life brings you and your family, you are truly one selfless mom, wife, and friend!
I’ve always been into working out and watching what I ate. The problem is that from the age of 7 until a few years ago (about 26 years old then), I struggled with anorexia and bulimia. I spent most of my teen years in and out of hospitals and rehab treatment facilities for it. I was stuck in this cycle of diet, starve, binge, purge, exercise to death. I was very thin and very malnourished. I was never overweight until after I had our first daughter. While pregnant with her, I started out thin and then let myself (for the first time ever), eat whatever I wanted.
I gained 65 lbs.
I went from a size 1 to wearing my hubby’s baggy sweatpants. Talk about feeling gross and frumpy! I almost never looked in the mirror. Not even when I brushed my teeth. I never wore makeup. This self loathing was the deepest after each birth of our children, and only got worse. I struggled with wanting to be healthy and starving myself skinny. My thoughts were very black and white: eat everything or eat nothing.
In 2012 I stumbled across the fit moms website. I have no clue how I found it (but thank you Google!) Our daughters were 6 & 4 and our son was about 7 months old. I had actually lost the baby weight after having him but somehow let myself gain weight to a terrifying 210 lbs. when I had spent most of my life being between 85 and 130 lbs, I cried. I bought the Fit Moms for Life book and read it cover to cover. I reasoned that I couldn’t afford the monthly program and therefore that was not my rock bottom. I was eating better, but it wasn’t until my birthday this year that I found rock bottom.
May, 29, 2013: my doctor called. I knew he would be calling about my labs for my thyroid. I was diagnosed with Graves Disease when I was 17 but after a thyroid storm that almost killed me they gave me radioactive iodine to ablate it. So I was supposed to be on a hormone replacement (synthroid). I had not been able to afford it for six months. My thyroid level was off the charts but that wasn’t all. He told me I needed to come in immediately. My husband and kids waiting in the waiting room as my doctor told me that my severely out of control thyroid was wrecking havoc on my organs. My heart, liver, kidneys, vitamin levels, cholesterol, etc., every lab came back abnormal and he said that if I don’t make changes, I’ll die soon. To change he said to take my meds everyday (he gave them to me free), and I needed to get healthy. Now.
I cried. A lot. And then my awesome hubby told me I could order my fit moms monthly DVDs and we would make it work. I don’t know exactly how much I weighed at the time, but I was around 215. And a size 14/16. To my own surprise, I’ve stuck with it! I really like seeing real moms who’ve had success with fit moms doing the workouts with me. My favorite parts are always strength training and core. Cardio is never going to be my favorite, but I treat it like ripping off a band-aid: suck it up and get it over with!
The challenges I faced were all internal. Do I deserve to do this for myself? My kids need me every minute. Negative self talk: I’m never going to lose the weight, why bother? But I did it anyways.
I am now 172lbs. Not my ultimate goal weight but considering I started in June officially, that’s 43lbs lost. It’s what I’ve gained that’s been the real game changer. Confidence, ambition, determination, a go-getter. I want to help everyone I can get healthier. My sister joins me in working out & I signed up to be a local group leader. Most importantly I’m happier and a much better mother. My kids get the best of me more often, which is pretty important since we homeschool! My daughters are now 8 & 6 and our son is 2. They like to pull out their yoga mats and join me while I get fit and healthy. We talk about the importance of being strong and healthy especially since they’re in sports!
When I posted my before and after to my Facebook account, I started getting messages. I had been posting about my meals and working out but the photo put it in perspective. REAL changes were happening! So many wanted to know what I was doing, how I was doing it.
Food wise I have always eaten good, however I also ate junk. Portion sizing was a huge culprit. I needed to eat normal amounts instead of stuffing myself full of empty calories. I try to eat protein every meal and eat a mostly paleo/primal diet. My stomach feels way better! I have “cheats” also, but I don’t officially call it that. This is my life. If I want nachos, fine. That does not mean that I throw out my whole day or week (as I had done in the past). Keep portions in check and eat healthy far more often. I also advise getting creative in the kitchen. I just found out I have two new favorite veggies: spaghetti squash and asparagus. Who knew?!
I’m fighting eating disordered thoughts, and health problems. I’m a busy homeschooling mom of three, a wife of almost 10 years and an entrepreneur with two businesses. You can do this. You deserve it and you need this. You’re worth the time, effort, and dedication.
Get yourself healthy and fit…then pay it forward.
PS: Dustin, thank you for saving my life.